I want to delete my old uploads and start fresh when I have more time. I just feel like when I took my other shots which are about a year old I didn't know how to use my cam properly and I didn't have a very good eye so when I look at most of them now i just cringe at the quality.
Gah.

Any ideas?

What have you been up to lately?

So yeah.


I'll try to keep this short! Sorry to complain I don't usually like to complain this much.

My school is far away from everyone and I don't really have many friends because of the atmosphere, the school is very posh and very bitchy and everyone is so clever. I thought I was average but now it just feels worse and I feel dumb. It also makes me realise just how bad Edenham was for education.

Something mad here like 99% got 5 A-c GCSE's and 25% of those were A and A* grades and then for A level 78% of students got an A B or C so they put us under a lot of pressure already so that the school gets higher each year.

I'm getting home work from every single lesson and it's amounting to me doing at least 3 hours per day now! I know i wanted to go here because of the good grades and my mum wanted me to because they are ranked 3rd after St Olaves and Newsted Woods. But it is awful.

I hate my chemistry class i felt so stupid because we we're doing something new and the teacher KEPT asking me questions and i didn't know and after about the 3rd time of me not knowing she called me to the front and said 'Now Stephanie I suggest you bother to tell me when your struggling with someone, I suggest you work harder and go over the work at home before our exam next lesson because there are plenty or spaces left n media and there is a long waiting list for chemistry.'
It was so horrible and the girls were sniggering at me because they are all clever and they don't get why i couldn't get it, baring in mind Mr Welsh was a SHIT chemistry teacher and my new teacher is going over everything so fast she's a right cow!!!!!

Besides that on the first day I was getting almost pulled from group to group cos all the girls that weren't new wanted to talk to the new people but after they lost interest they are really bitchy and just ignore me so I'm mainly standing around alone...Because everyone has their own friend groups already as there were only like 30 external places meaning most accepted were boys who all stick together and the rest are girls but there is not many of us and only 3 new girls in my classes and only one doing my subjects.

Anyway I am sorry to complain it's just hard for me right now, apart from chemistry the teaching is very good and I am loving the subjects and the way they are taught especially english lit. but as for the atmosphere and the people i have to spend the day with (or in my case WITHOUT) its making me really lonely and unhappy. I cant help being shy either and i doubt that helps but i hope that it will work out for me. I only know a few people but they are not even people I hang about with...



I MISS LOCKERS SO MUCH BUT I KNOW I HAVE TO MOVE ON WITH MY SCHOOL LIFE.

So today my mum was walking the dogs as usual, early in the morning and my dog ran out into the wood and came back with something in his mouth. It was a baby squirrel. Now i know nothing about squirrels really except i heard grey ones are meant to be killed because the country has too many of them. This one is grey with bits of brown...But no, i'm not killing it don't think that!

anyway


We couldn't find it's mummy when we found it and it wasn't harmed by my dog either. We took it home and put it in a towel in a box and put a hot water bottle underneath to keep it warm.

I did some research on it, turns out it must be about 5 weeks old. It's eyes are not yet open and it scrambles around it can't walk.

I went out my room after moving the box and it musta woken it up cos i had such a shock when i came back in, there was this lil thing crawling around my room i forgot and nearly freaked out i thought it was a rat!
Anyways i figured it was hungry and looking for mummy and it was making all these squeaking sounds, so i named 'him' [looks like a him..] Squeaky.

My mum spoke to a wildlife center they told us to feed it some warm sugared water. I did this all on my own seeing as my mum had to leave for work and we found the baby at 9am, my bro didn't want to help me at all! I'm really proud of that too it was difficult loading a calpol syringe, trying to get it to open it's mouth and trying to hold it and feed it at the same time without squashing him he's so little and fragile...!

When it was done I had to clean its nose and mouth so it didn't choke or anything from it's feed [bearing in mind the whole time i'm not touching it directly im sure they are probably ridden with disease but i cant just leave it to die!]

After it's feed i put it back in the towel and now it's curled up asleep.

If your wondering why we haven't given it to a wildlife center yet, i can't get there with it till my mum comes home and can drive us there, so around 5pm it will be in better hands.

So yeah that was my day, it's been fun and strange all the same, I love animals but i have never handled a squirrel and they are so cute!

If anyone has any tips or ideas for me about this please do write

P.S - A photo of 'Squeaky' can be found in my scraps, here: [link]

Yeh, well I start school tomorrow ...

Not looking forward to it because I don't know anyone, well one person...

Anyone been up to anything much this week?